~Life is too long without you~

~ I wonder how long this can last. Maybe years from now- if the pain would just decrease to the point where I could bear it- I would be able to look back on those few short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible if the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel grateful for as much time as he had given me. More than I'd deserved. Maybe someday I'd be able to see it that way.~
FROM: NEW MOON

This paragraph from an exquisite trilogy(Twilight)sums up my misery in losing "Beans".
It's coming on 3 months now, that seems like an eternity. But also, feels so raw, that it could have only been a second ago....
I love you "Beans"